Didn't realize it'd been that long since I'd last posted. Sixteen weeks is a while. Thanks for the nudge, ladyskada !!
It's weird that I've left my LJ to become so dormant. I barely touch my MySpace anymore. *shrug*
Ok..so what's been happening....
Since my last post back in June, there's been some goings-on. The people I met at the comic con turned out to not be whom I thought they'd be. One wound up being more of a droning sod, and the other...*sigh*...the other. Where do I start...yeah, this ain't gonna be pretty.
I knew something would be weird with him the weekend my new nephew was born (more on that little cutie later!!). Since our birthdays were just a few days away, he wanted to cook me dinner for my birthday. He'd told me about a week or two before, and I had to explain to him at least twice that my sister was pretty much due any time, so that had me on Baby Alert, and we'd have to see how things went. Well, sure enough, my sister went on her due date, and I was at my sister's house all weekend. I didn't have a helluva lot of time to get myself packed up and ready to go back south. And as it were, I spent that week at someone else's house so I could get back and forth to work. Now, he'd started texting me again, and telling me how excited he was that he was gonna cook me dinner and get to see me and stuff. And he wanted me to see if I could spend the weekend at HIS place. Now, with the limited time I had to be home, and the things I needed to do, it just wasn't gonna happen. It wasn't intentional. Circumstances were just NOT gonna let it happen, at least at the time. So, it turned into asking a few times a week about getting together. And I'd made the mistake of showing him my Daffy Duck tattoo, and telling him which cartoon it was from. So he started texting me lines from the cartoon. All. The. Time. He'd shown up at my place at least 3 times unannounced, and two other times, he brought his 11 year old son with him, also unannounced. His son has ADHD...and HE has ADD, and they're both untreated. His son would be trying to get into things around my place, and want to use my PS2, or want to check out stuff online or whatnot. And his father, when he would sit, would rock back and forth. It made talking to him unsettling, then eventually, aggravating. I really started dreading him. When he'd show up here, I'd ignore him because I couldn't handle the rocking. He couldn't wrap his head around that I couldn't really do much over the weekends, since I had no way to get anywhere. When he'd be here, he'd hug me and feel me up. Or he'd keep texting me how much he missed me or how horny he was or try to be funny. I made the mistake of bringing him to a Dark Intentions event, and felt incredibly uncomfortable and kind of embarassed that he was there. I had no patience with him. He doesn't have a job, and no car OR drivers' license. I stopped returning his texts. I made the mistake of answering one when he'd asked if I wanted to go to one of the NHRD bouts and said maybe. He started up again with a couple more texts about wanting to get together on the weekends. I backed out of going to derby. I stopped returning his messages again. I'd had it out with him not long before that, on one of his unannounced visits, unloading on him about everything. I know it hurt him, but I had to tell him. Then a few weeks ago, he asked me if I was going to faire sometime, and if I was, could he go with me. I didn't answer him. I saw him yesterday when I was out, and he asked me again about faire. I told him I had no idea if I was even gonna make it to faire because money was so insanely tight. I'm sure he can be a really nice guy, but I just can't deal with his untreated ADD, and that he has no job, license, or car.
So anyways....my new nephew..My new nephew!! Oh Gods...he's so damned cute. He's almost 4 months old, and he's already rolling around and has two teeth. He's got some small health problems that he should outgrow - he has torticollis (wry neck) and plagiocephaly (flat skull) on one side of his head. But he's been in PT for a few weeks, and he may need a helmet for a while to help reshape his skull. He's such a beautiful baby, and Jack thinks Maffew (that's how he pronounces his name) is great, too, and that's what matters. :) I'm firmly convinced that between the two boys, they will figure out time travel. :)
Back in June, I met a woman at a party that was thrown by hazeleyedfae and her new hubby. She was another bbw, and rather cute, too. She flirted like crazy with me, and of course, I was half oblivious. I tend to be when someone flirts with me, because it happens so infrequently. We seemed to hit it off ok, but there were some things - she was out of work, and didn't have her license or a car (pattern here, what?). She lives down in Worcester. With the things as they were at the time (me without my license), it would make seeing each other difficult, so we agreed to take things lightly, and see how things go. Then she wound up having to move in with a friend, and is now sleeping on their couch. I've had her up here twice, with help from friends. THEN, I find out she got herself pregnant. She told me a couple of weeks ago about a dream she had where her and her lesbian lover would raise the child together. That completely weirded me out. I'm not one to be thrust into becoming a parent. And I really don't want to get into something where I would be the only one driving or doing the travelling. So now she's involved with someone else, and from what I figure, a guy. Nothing gained, nothing lost, really.
Wanting to be with someone who has AT LEAST a job, a place to live, a license, and a car is NOT unreasonable. I think those are pretty standard.
Ok...onward. I got my license back on September 21st., and I've been working even more since I got it back. Things are crazy busy at work, since my boss bought up the customer list from another EmbroidMe that had gone out of business. So now we've taken on new companies and new clients. It's only been about two weeks, but it feels like so much longer. I'm up early and in work early, and out late. I don't sleep worth shit, and I've become socially awkward over the last 9 months. Sleeping on friends' couches and not a helluva lot of social interaction does tend to do that, I guess. Hopefully things will get better, but it may take a while.
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